A need to do things

I have a compulsive need to achieve things. By 12pm every day I want to feel like I have made a list of achievements, no matter how small or trivial. Maybe I can work through my inbox, study a chapter for university or spend an hour at the gym. I have this unrefutable compulsion to do things.

If I manage to make it through till lunchtime without doing anything I feel terrible. I spiral into a well of guilt and a feeling of disappointment with myself.

Today I managed to get something done. I had a long-overdue haircut. My hair is now of a reasonable length for a man. My pre-lunch goal is achieved and I can not conquer the rest of the day with the knowledge that I am not a lazy-good-for-nothing so-and-so.

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